//+miss you always+//

2005-02-05T11:49:00.000+08:00

Listening: I Miss You Crazy- The Moffatts

Moffatts- I Miss You Like Crazy

I used to call you my girl
I used to call you my friend
I used to call you the love
The love that I never had

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

You're all that I want
You're all that I need
(You're all that I need)
Can't you see how I feel
Can't you see that my pain's so real

When I think of you
I don't know what to do
When will I see you again

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

I miss you like crazy
Even more than words can say
I miss you like crazy
Every minute of every day
Girl I'm so down
When your love's not around
I miss you, miss you, miss you
I miss you like crazy

I miss you like crazy
I miss you like crazy
I miss you like crazy
I miss you like crazy

It been a long time since i blog, been pretty busy recently, ever since I went to CjC. Frenz there are jus wonderful, cool and fun. My class bonded very well and everyone seem to adapt to the new environment pretty quickly and well. Hope that my class spirit will continue.... SLACK, STUN, SLEEP, STONED... WONDERFul manx....

As for myself, somethings still haf not change after so long, i guess it is considered a pretty some time. Although she is gone, some things will never be the same. It jus like after an accident, the scar will always remain, even after the injuries has heal. Pain can still be felt...

I still miss u

2005-01-08T17:12:00.000+08:00

Listening: Radio-Power 98

it been years since my last post, and there are many happening during this period of time. Considered myself pretty lucky, as I wasnt caught in the tsunami disaster during my holiday. In this enteries, i am going to mention my holiday in thailand-Bali from 26 dec 2004 to 2 jan 2005 and my orientation programme in my new college.

First, i am going to talk abt my holiday in thailand -Bali 2004. I considered myself pretty lucky and escape death from the tsunami disaster twice, as i was in penang, kota fringgi, malaysia 2 weeks before 26 dec 2004, when the tsunami wave hits there. From the newspaper report, I am pretty sure, that the wave hit the beach and the hotel i was staying. So should i have been there 2 weeks later, i guess, i wouldnt be back in singapore right now, writing my blog... according to the news reports, the wave claimed 28 dead at Kota Fringgi, the place where i was staying... Thanx god manx... I am so lucky...

Next, when my family was planning to fly to thailand, Bangkok for holiday, we are also planning to visit the Phuket, for holiday. But the plan was apparently cancelled, ~ thank god~ as my friends in thailand, mentioned that they had went there for holiday before. So should the plan to fly to thailand, then phuket, I wouldnt be typing my blog in singapore right now, and probably be one of the victims in the tsunami disasters.

A Short Prayer For Those Who Are Affected By The Tsunami Disaster:

-In The Name Of Lord
-Protect all those rescurer who are now carrying out search and rescure operation
-May them find more survivor from the debris
-Give those who have lost family members in one or more ways, the strength to carry on with life and look at life positively.
-Bless and protect the current survivors from all the affected countries in asia, from diseases and sickness that may arise due to the poor sanitation condition.
-Protect and give strength to those in helping to deliever the aids, such as medication, food and water to all affected areas, so that less with die from hunger, disease and sickness
-in the holy name of christ, I pray, Amen...

Something Interesting Abt My Holiday:

From 26 Dec 2004-2 Jan 2005
Flew on the plane jus alone this trip: 4 Time
No. of camera in action: 2 Sony DSC-T1
No. of photographs and movie clips took: 1244
Total Size of all the photograph and Movie clips: 2.06 GB
Spend Almost $10 000 ( Think so)
Flew to thailand and Bali

26 Dec 2004:
-arrived at changi international at abt 11am.
-Flying in tiger Airline (Budget Airline)
-say bye bye singapore at 1pm
-arrived in thailand, bangkok international airport 2pm(Thailand Time)
-Mr Pisit, my dad friend, pick up at the airport, together with my friend Bond.
-Went to the a theme park, the world carnival, bangkok and have fun until it was almost 7pm
-Drive to Pisit Uncle Home for dinner
-Arrive at abt 9pm
-Had dinner until 12pm, the home cook food was superb.
-Had a chat over the dinner table until 2am the next day...
~ did i mentioned that his home is a super huge bunglow that look like a superstar one, shall mentioned more abt it later~my DReAM HOME

27 Dec 2004:
-Woke up at abt 9am
-Went to Nan Aunties House, at abt 12noon
~Another Huge Wonderful Bunglow~
-Went for lunch at abt 2pm in the village
-Shopping Time, At the Mall until abt 5pm
-Went for dinner near Mr Pisit Home Until 9pm
-Return back to Mr Pisit Home to Sleep....ZZZzzzZZZzzz
-Pack and get ready for the following day
-Slept with my bro in the guest home.

28 Dec 2004:
-Woke up at abt 4am
-Mr Pisit's driver arrive at his home at abt 4.45am
-Leave his home for Bali at abt 5am
-Arrive at Bangkok International Airport 5.45am
-Ooph...My Bro and His Friend, Non, had KFC for breakfast
-6.15am, the tour guide arrived and do some admin stuff
-check in by 6.45am
-In The Check-In Terminal, All of have KFC again for breakfast
-After That Catch the Plane that is leaving Bangkok Airport 8.40am
-We are Flying on Thai Airline
-Bye Bye Bangkok
-Arrived in Bali, Despansar Airport , at 2pm (Bali, Singapore Time)
-Check Into the hotel
-Went to visit a temple
-Had dinner by the beach 8pm
-Return back to hotel to ZZzzZZzz, almost 11pm.

29 Dec 2004:
-Woke up at 6.30am
-Had Breakfast in the hotel, 7.30am
-Leave the hotel by 8.30am
-Watch a cultural Show, at 9am, which i almost slept throughout it...Ooph..
-Went to a wood carving centre..which is pretty interesting
-Lunch Time, on top of a mountain, located next to a active mountian,( height of the mountain about 2000m)
-Shopping time, at the local shop ( many sad and pity feeling start to fill me)
-Visit a Batik Shop
-Visit another Hindu Temple
-Dinner Time...
-Went for spa...( Ohh... that is wonderful)
-back to hotel to sleep ZZZzzzzZZZzzz

30 Dec 2004:
-Woke at abt 6.50am, although morning call was 6.30am
-A Doctor came into our room, realise my mum got food poisoning..and she got a jab...
-Breakfast at abt 7.40am
-Visit a temple by the beach,
-Took photo with a bat, which pee pee, when i was taking photo
-It was abt 1 plus, when we had lunch on the slope of the mountain, and the scene of our restaurant was padi Cultivation practice by terrancing..wonferful view...
-visit the monkey farm, took photo with a monkey
-Shopping time
-A long drive to the Habour, where we will be having a romantic dinner, in a ship by the sea...
-Argh... Realise that the dinner, wasnt romantic after all, more like a rock party dinner...
-my parent together with tina aunt and pisit uncle dance together ( so romantic)
-then it my turn liao, rock party dance on the stage (wooooo hooooo)
-it the end of the day liao, back to hotel to zzZZzzzZZzzzZZZzz

31 Dec 2004:
-Woke up at 6.30am again
-Breakfast at 7.30am
-Today is reserved for water sport...... woooooo hoooooo wonderful....
-return back to the hotel to check out by 12noon
-Visit the Kuta Beach, where topless ladies exist, and also where the bali bombing too place... damn nice....woooo hooo... i am gonna visit there again...
-had our lunch at a chinese resturant
-Pia to the airport to catch our plane back to bangkok
-Reach the airport by 3.30pm
-Bye bye bali depensar 5.30pm
-Fly on Thai airline
-Arrive in thailand, bangkok international airport 8.30pm ( bangkok time)
-return back to pisit home to unload all the bags
-it is abt 10pm, when we drive out to have our dinner ( Dad and bro miss out on it, as bro is not feeling well)
-Had noodles for dinner, and it was wonderful, cost per bowl of noodle sing $1...hahahA..
-countdown by the tv.... that is pretty sianZ. but cant help it..
-zZzZZZzzzZZzz by 12.30pm wit mr pisit again ( did he snOrred? , that is first qns i was asked by his wife tina)

1 Dec 2005:
-Woke up 6am
-Travel to another provience in thailand for watersport activities
-Had our breakfast on the way
-it was a long drive, about 3 hrs
-It was abt 12 noon when we had our dinner by sea... ohhhhhhh... that was wonderful........
-Boat to an island, for the wonderful beach, waves and super clear water...
-Travel around the island
-Play by the beach and had fun playing banana boat...wooooohooooo....that is 100% fun...
-Return back to mainland, by speed boat again by 7pm....
-Had dinner at about 10pm...and it was superb...
-back to Mr Pisit Home for New Year Celebration...
-Played firecracker and trumpet, fireworks...
-ZzzZZzzZZzzZZzzZzzZZzzzZZZz

2 Dec 2005:
-Woke up by 7am.
-Had Breakfast by 8am,
-Finish breakfast by 8.45am and realise that we are pretty late liao...
-pia down to the airport by the highway, was travelling about 120km/h to 150km/h throughout the highway.
-Check into terminal...
-Hugged everyone and i almost cry, miss them a lot and veri much...
-bye bye Bangkok by 10.30am..
-Arrive back in singapore 1.3opm ( singapore time)

~The End of Thailand-Bali Holiday 2004~

2004-12-12T22:45:00.000+08:00

Listening: None...

Jus Came Back from my HolIday... PreTty TireD riGht Now....
HAd ManY WonDerFul ExPerIeNces...tRaveLled to penang, then ipoh and k.l and finally back to singapore...WooHoo...

Travelled 1868.5km in 4 days.
Took Almost 2.62 GB of photos and movie clips ( 612 photos and movie clips)
Spend Almost s$2000...
Visited 4 different temples

2004-12-08T11:39:00.000+08:00

Listening: You Took My Heart Away- Michael Learns To Rock

You Took My Heart Away

Staring at the moon so blue

Turning all my thoughts to you

I was without hopes or dreams

I tried to dull an inner scream but you

saw me through

Walking on a path of air

See your faces everywhere

As you melt this heart of stone

you take my hand to guide me home and now

I'm in love

Chorus: You took my heart away

when my whole world was gray

You gave me everything

and a little bit more

And when it's cold at night

and you sleep by my side

you become the meaning of my life

Living in a world so cold

you are there to warm my soul

You came to mend a broken heart

You gave my life a brand new start and now I'm in love

Chorus:

You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

Holding your hand

I won't fear tomorrow

Here were we stand

we'll never be alone

Chorus:

You took my heart away
when my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
and a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
and you sleep by my side
you become the meaning of my life

you become the meaning of my life

You become the meaning of my life

Why??? Why??? Why???

Why Am I Feeling Like This???

I Reallie Got NuThinG To Say....

2004-12-03T13:06:00.000+08:00

Listening: Down-Blink 182

JuS Woke uP FrOm My SleeP, RecOrd 10 and the half hours of sleep...yeah... feeling so shuanG nOw... pRevious record, 17 and the half hours of sleep... Hope To bReaK thIs RecOrd soOn..~~ In Life, Onli When You Learn To Set Records and Set New Height, Then Onli You will Feel The Ultimate adreanlina in life...

Blink 182-Down

The drops of rain they fall all over

This awkward silence makes me crazy

The glow inside burns light upon her

I'll try to kiss you if you let me

(this can't be the end)

Tidal waves they rip right through me

Tears from eyes worn cold and sad

Pick me up now, I need you so bad

Down down down down

It gets me so

Down down down down

It gets me so

Your vows of silence fall all over

The look in your eyes makes me crazy

I feel the darkness break upon her

I'll take you over if you let me

(You did this)

Tidal waves they rip right through me

Tears from eyes worn cold and sad

Pick me up now, I need you so bad.

Down down down down

It gets me so

Down down down down

It gets me so

Crusing Down The North-South Highway at 180km/k

Feel The Adreanaline Rush In Your Blood

Listen To The Roar Of The New 7

Throw All you Worries Aside

2004-12-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

Listening: Somewhere Only We Know-Keane

Yeah... Part Of Me Will Be Moving... To Somewhere Only I Know.

I Will:

Love Like I Never Been Hurt Before
Work Like I Never Need Money
Eat Like I Never Feel Hungry
Dance Like The Music Will Never End
Run Like The Road Ahead Will Never Seem To End

~Dreams Do Come True, If You Set Out And Work Towards It~

Somewhere Only We know -Keane

I walked across an empty land

I knew the pathway like the back of my hand

I felt the earth beneath my feet

Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree

I felt the branches of it looking at me

Is this the place we used to love?

Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

Somewhere only we know?

[break]

Oh simple thing where have you gone

I'm getting old and i need something to rely on

So tell me when you're gonna let me in

I'm getting tired and i need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go

talk about it somewhere only we know

this could be the end of everything

so why don't we go

somewhere only we know

(Instrumental)

This could be the end of everything

So why don't we go

Somewhere only we know?

2004-12-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

Listening: My Happy Ending- Avril Lavigne

Jus came back home from my class graduation chalet celebration. WalK ZiLiN hoMe, aS iT waS VeRi DaRk nEAr Her hOMe, Tink heR mUm is pRetTy angry wiT heR... MayBe coS sHe gO bACk HoMe sO laTe...the chalet, was kina a failure, but i must pei fu thOse who pUt in effOrtS, a loT of EffORT in contributIng And MakInG tHiS ChaLet A pOsSiBle.. pretty EnjOy iT.. ToOk ManY PhOtos and I ReallIe lUv it... i GonnA mIss evEryOne, eSpeCially, oNe LiTtLE preTtY CutE anGel... WeNt to paSir RiS park, to have a walk. Play by the sand, reallie miss my childhood... ThrOwiNg SAnd aT eaCh OthEr and taKing PhoTos...

Came BaCk hoMe, reaLise i Got raSHeS All oVer My Body, probably, cos of The Sand by The Beach... Now fratically loOkin fOr My MedIcaTion FoR mY allergies, bUt i jus CoulDn't FinD tHem..DaMn... If tomorroW my Rash Do nOt go away, then I Must See Dr Ung Liao... Hai~ Let PrAy Fer The best...

Came back home with
Heartaches, Headaches And Rashes All Over My Body.
Miss You Badly...
Why must you avoid me?
Why cant you accept little things i do?
Why must to keep quiet, when you are with me?
i know you don' t enjoY my AccomPany?
I Took A lot OF Courage to those Things.
Although, it may mean nothing to you,
but do u know how you react mean a lot to me.
I Know you cant accept me.
I know your heart belong to someone else.
But can you just give me a chance?

I am emotional, mentally and physcially tired.
Whenever i Take 1 step forward,
You Would take 2 steps backwards.
I am tired of chasing after you...
So tired, so sick, that
I am Falling apart soon.
I jus want to hold your hand,
and walk you home everytime...

I miss you everynight badly,
cant sleep, cant eat, cant do anything.

~Miss You Dearly~LiTtLe AnGeL...

2004-11-30T01:13:00.000+08:00

Listening: I will Carry You- Clay Aiken

jUs caMe bAcK fRoM mY pRoM nIte... ReAllY hAd A gReAt TiMe tHerE.EvEryOne Looks So difference, so special, each in their own unique way. All the girls really beautiful, gorgeous and elegane, too bad didn't reallie know all of them, so didnt have a chance to take a photo wiT tHem. BuT in my eYes, theRe is onLy One, wHicH i trUly caLleD angel.

QuIte HappY tHe wAy i loOk fOr tHe SeCoNd tImE In My Life... MoSt of tHe TiMe, i loOkeD dAmN HaggArd...and I HaTe ThOsE looKs of MiNe. DidN't reallIe HavE tHe TiMe To LooK aFtEr My ApPeArAnCe In thE pAsT... BuT i aM gOiNg to SpenD thIs HoLiDay LooKInG aFtEr mY aPpEaRancE... I rEAllIe LuV mYsElf ToNiTe... bUt sOmeThInG is StIll MiSsIng... hai~

FiNally, i FoUnD mY camErA. After SearChing FranticaLly foR 3 Days, nOw i caN slEEp in PeAce...FoUnD it wHen I aM AbOuT tO LeaVe mY HouSe for PrOm... ShO HAppIe... bUt theN, tHe BatTery GaVe uP oN mE wHeN i wAs TaKing PhOtO DuRiNg The FunCtion... Hai~ Miss Out on So MAni NiCe pHoTo ShoTs...

In My Eye, You Are An Angel.

I know, Soon You Will Be Gone.

Not Something, I can decide.

I Gonna Miss You Dearly.

While, now I have the time,

I can only care, love and concern you secretly.

For you are the only one right now i care.

I know you can't tell that.

Cos, i cant express myself...

I really hope you can read what I am Thinking and Feeling,

As no words can describe how I feel For You.

When i See You, I tried my best to talk to You,

But no matter how hard i tried, words jus cant come out of my mouth.

I see loneliness in your eye, and when you feel loneliness,

All I can do is to sit there and see you suffer.

How i wish i could suffer in behalf of you...

I reaLlie wish to hold your hand tightly,

So that you will never leave me.

Walk beside you and accompany you.

Protect you from all harm that come in our way.

Talk to you, so that you will never feel lonely.

2004-11-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

Listening: White Houses- Venessa Carlton

dyed my hair tOdaY... KiNa reGreTteD, cOs tHe ColoUr didn't TuRn ouT wHat I wAnTed... Hai~ anyWay, i ManAgeD to HiDe And CoVer My StuPid whItE HaiR...ThAt iS a gOod ThiNg FoR Me... Drinkin my 2Nd glAss Of rEd WinE nOw, aNd iT tAsTe rathEr SmooThInG... verY ReLaXing...

AlmoSt DoNe wIt My ScAnNinG JoB, stiLl LefT wiTh The TeN YeAr SerIes...Hai~ MuSt Pia FiniSh...FinaLly, i cLeaRed my TextBookS frOm My RoOm, and iT is RatHer EmoTional to cLeaR theSe boOks... Hai~ 4 Years passed liao, so fast... jus manage to catch a fEw wOrdS wiT LaUra And DeBra. ReAliSeD thAt EveRyoNe changEd liao~

ThoughT thAt VeNesSa CarLton vOicE iS rAthEr CuTe... LuV heR VoicE and heR SonG - WhiTe HouSes. ThiS SonG ReaLlIe remInd mE oF heR, She Is juS sho cuTe and pRetTy, aNd i can onLi fiND onE WoRd to DesCriBe her , " PerFecT" she is jus sHo peRfeCt, in mY eye, i dUn SeE Any FaUlt in hEr...it reAlly sho pItY she Isn'T mIne...

Vanessa Carlton-White Houses

Crashed on the floor when I moved in
This little bunk alone with some strange new friends
Stay up too late, and I'm too thin
We promise each other it's til the end
Now we're spinning empty bottles
It's the five of us
With pretty eyed boys girls die to trust
I can't resist the day
No, I can't resist the day
Jenny screams out and it's no pose
'Cause when she dances she goes and goes
beer through the nose on an inside joke
And I'm so excited, I haven't spoken
And she's so pretty, and she's so sure
Maybe I'm more clever than a girl like her
The summer's all in bloom
The summer is ending soon
It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Maybe I'm a little bit over my head
I come undone at the things he said
And he's so funny in his bright red shirt
We were all in love and we all got hurt
I sneak into his car's black leather seat
The smell of gasoline in the summer heat
Boy, we're going way too fast
It's all too sweet to last
It's alright
And I put myself in his hands
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
Love, or something ignites in my veins
And I pray it never fades in white houses
My first time, hard to explain
Rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
On a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
He's my first mistake
Maybe you were all faster than me
We gave each other up so easily
These silly little wounds will never mend
I feel so far from where I've been
So I go, and I will not be back here again
I'm gone as the day is fading on white houses
I lie, put my injuries all in the dust
In my heart is the five of us
In white houses
And you, maybe you'll remember me
What I gave is yours to keep
In white houses
In white houses
In white houses

Prayer"Please bless her with wisdom, protect her from harm, evil and danger. May she always be in good health and happy always. Remove all her pain, sadness and unhappiness. I am willing to take the pain, sadness and unahppiness on behalf of her" GoD always bless "Her"

2004-11-26T02:19:00.000+08:00

Listening: I will Carry Out - Clay Aiken

Clay Aiken "I Will Carry You"

Yeah, I know it hurts

Yeah, I know you're scared

Walkin' down

The road that leads

To Who-Knows-Where

Dont'cha hang your head

Dont'cha give up yet

When courage starts

To disappear

I will be right here

When your world

Breaks down

And the voices tell you,

"Turn around"

When your dreams

Give out

I will carry you

Carry you

When the stars

Go blind

And the darkness starts to

Flood your eyes

When you're fallin'

Behind

I will carry you

Everybody cries

Everybody bleeds

No one ever

Said that life's

An easy thing

That's the beauty of it

When you lose your way

Close your eyes

'N' go to sleep

Wake up to

Another day

When your world

Breaks down

And the voices tell you,

"Turn around"

When your dreams

Give out

I will carry you

Carry you

When the stars

Go blind

And the darkness starts to

Flood your eyes

When you've fallen

Behind

I will carry you

You should know now

That you're not alone

Take my heart and we will find

You will find

Your way ho-ome

When your dreams

give outI will carry you

Carry you

When the stars

Go blind

And the darkness starts to

Flood your eyes

When you've fallen

Behind

I will carry you

Carry you

I will carry you

Carry you

2004-11-26T01:29:00.000+08:00

Listening: Foreword-Linkin Park

wEnt FaCial toDaY, wonderfUl ExPeRiEncE... FiRsT tImE alSo... diD MasK, and iT waS CoOl and FanTaStic.. I lUv It... StaRt MaSs DoWnloAdiNg Of Mp3 FiLes...FiNAllIE my RoOm iS Tidier, ClEaR the SeC 4 scHoOl FiLe and WoRkSheEt, whiCh brOught baCk soMe MemOrabLe sTufF DuRinG mY MuGgInG PeRIod...

NoW TrOUbled By WheRe ShoUld I gO foR fiRsT 3Mths JCs? Any Idea????

My SixtH SeNsE teLls mE tHat sHe is MiGrAtiNg tO AnOtHeR CouNTry nExT YeAr, and I FeEl thIs Urge tO SpEnd MoRe tIme WiT Her... Miss You 4ever...

cONFuseD..

2004-11-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

Listening: The Shadows- The Rasmus

WeNt ShOppInG wIt VaL, tO gEt mY CloThEs for my PrOm NiTeZ... SpEnD a BoMb, almoSt 2oo bucks. Zee anD eRic then tagged aLonG... haha... had luncH at MoS BurgUr...GoT alL mY StUFf at TOpMan, Wistma Aria... ReAlliE haD a wOnDEr TiMe...BRouGh a BlAcK and CoOl SHirt, reallIe luv It and a paNt...BroUght a dye for my stupid And sucky LoOkinG hAir...

ReAliSe thAt i aM a nOt iN thE WrOnG all ThiS While. makE Me Felt Betta to Know ThaT i ShouLdn't ChaNge For U, thE proB lIes wiTh YOU, YOU are the OnE thaT is The MaIn cAuSe Of ProB, and NoW i ReAliSe whY everYoNe hates anD deteSt U... FeLt sO mUch aT easE NoW, sInCe i ReAliSe ThAt i aM nOt the MaiN cAuSe of CoNfLict...I WilL ConTinUe To Be My OwN BeN, and nOt ChAnGe FoR u...IF yOu wAnT to DisReGard mE aS a FrEnZ, tHeRe Is NuThiN i CaN do, buT to WisH u BeSt oF LuCk iN EvErYthiNg U do...

In The Shadows

by Rasmus
No sleep, no sleep untill I'm done finding the answer

Won't stop, won't stop before I find the cure for this cancer

Sometimes I feel like going down and I'm so disconnected

Somehow I know that I'm haunted to be wanted

I've been watchin', I've been waitin'

In the shadows for my time

I've been searchin', I've been livin'

For tomorrows all my life

Oou-oou oou-oou in the shadows

They say, that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe

But I, I'd rather kill myself than turn into their save

Sometimes, I feel that I should go and play with the thunder

Somehow, I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder

I've been watchin', I've been waitin'

In the shadows for my time

I've been searchin', I've been livin'

For tomorrows all my life

Lately, I've been walking, walking in circules

Watching, waiting for something

Feel me, touch me, heal me

Come take me higher

I've been watchin', I've been waitin'

In the shadows for my time

I've been searchin', I've been livin'

For tomorrows all my life

I've been watchin', I've been waitin',

I've been searchin', I've been livin'

For tomorrows

Oou-oou oou-oou in the shadows

I've been waitin'

2004-11-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

Listening: Down-Blink 182

JuS cAmE back froM maLaySia...so dead tired now... had a wonderful experience as a factory general worker for a day...NoW i reAlIsed, it wasn't easy To woRk as a FacTory GenEral WorkEr, imagine, being paid $20 a day for woRkiNg 12HouRs in a faCtOry...hmm... but it was a wonderful experience after all..had a lot fun cleaning, washing the toilet, cleaning windows, washing the factoRy floor... oh mind, the floor iS Filled wiTh constRustioN Dust, and the whole damN plAce is sO daMn dusty... ArMed WitH onLy BrOom aNd Dustpan...... noW i ReAllIe pIty thOSe India and Bangandesh WorkEr In A FaCtoRy...workInG 12 Hours a daY, but onlI to Get $20 bucks a days, reallie feel VerI saD FeR theM...WoRk HaRd KaE... JiA YoU FoR all oF TheM...

SoOn afTer, goT a ChAnCe to DroVe mY Papa's Cars... For quite A ShoRt distaNce...HahA, whEn i ToOk The DrIVeR SeAt, no OnE dares To Sit in the CaR...LUcklY, CoS i Still Haf Not MastEr tHe ArT of BrakIng, and AcCeLeRating...ProBablY Not Used to ThE CaR...ImPreSsE my PaPa...Too bAd, No pHoto to prOve MyselF this Time... will Try dRiviNg mY daD 's car Again later iN This MoNth. WilL TrY tO Get PhOtOs and Movies Clips To prOve mYSelF...haha

HaD DinNeR by The SeA, AnD ThE scenic wAs TerRified...HopiNg To ShaRe the sUnSeT witH u~miss you~... Wonderful ExperIence

2004-11-23T01:05:00.000+08:00

Listening: If You's Not The One-Daniel Bedingfield

heyx, welcome to my new blog.This will mark a ne w chapter of my life, my dreams, my goals and my aims. New hopes, New dreams, New life and New challenge...

I will,
see only what i want to see
hear only what i want to hear
smell only what i want to smell
touch only what i want to touch
feel the way, i wan myself to feel
in order to protect my fragile self
from this world full of danger...